My steps are directed

Let me tell you something about myself. Something happens to me when I see food. I am drawn to it. Seriously, I am not exaggerating. I can’t see food go to waste. If food is lying around, and no one is eating it, I feel compelled to eat it. My thoughts are consumed by it – I can almost hear that donut calling me to eat it! No. Joke.

I know some of it comes from my childhood experiences. I grew up in South America. My parents were missionaries and they have told us stories of many times where money was short and food was scarce. Those kinds of experiences leave an indelible mark on a child. But I can’t blame it all on my childhood. A big part of my problem is just bad habits that I have developed over time.

So when I made the decision to step on this path to health, I started praying.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t have the power to change myself. That is why I still weigh 286 pounds after 46 years of trying! I can’t overcome my weaknesses. I can’t change my habits. I can’t fight the urge to eat bread. Food has become a drug to soothe my hurts and celebrate my joys.

I have been praying REAL hard. I asked God for some very specific things on Tuesday. I asked Him to help me gain control of my eating. I asked Him to give me wisdom to make the right choices for my body. He created me and He knows what’s best for me! Every morning, I have asked Him to help me honor Him with my body.

I know God heard me.

This morning I was in a meeting where snacks were served. Not just any snack… coffee cake with icing. Normally I would NOT have passed that up! I would have taken at least 2 pieces before the meeting, and any left overs back to my desk at the end.

But something happened this morning and I know it was God – because I could never have done this on my own. I did not eat cake. But even more surprising, I wasn’t distracted by the cake or drawn to it. I walked out without even thinking of taking the left overs. People can you celebrate with me!?!? God heard my prayers and today was a victorious day on the path to health.

Maybe you’re reading this and you think I’m crazy. Maybe you think I am attributing pure coincidence to an unseen God. I challenge you to look at things from a different perspective. There IS a loving God who hears and answers the cry of His people. If you don’t believe me, ask Him to show Himself to you and He will. He will show up in beautiful, unexpected ways. I’m an eyewitness – I’ve see Him do it countless times!

I’ll leave you with one of my favorite Psalms:

The Lord directs the steps of the godly.  He delights in every detail of their lives. Psalm 37:23

No matter what path you are on, what Thing you are struggling with, your steps can be directed. Pray… God will hear you.

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Day 1: Step on the path

 

I am NOT healthy…

Selah. (That means, stop and think about it.)

I weigh 286 pounds. I can barely breathe when I walk up the stairs. I eat too much.  I am embarrassed to see myself in pictures. I don’t like looking at myself in the mirror. Truth is, I just don’t like myself.

I am not healthy in mind or in body…. but I WANT TO BE.

I want to be strong. I want to be self-confident. I want my husband to be proud to stand by my side. I want to like myself.

But all this wanting has gotten me nowhere. I am 46 years old and I can’t seem to change my habits. I can’t even pinpoint my greatest weakness. To say that I don’t have time to exercise is a lie. Last Friday, I spent 5 hours in front of the TV, just snacking and vegetating. I have the time.

What I don’t have is energy and motivation.

I get tired. I get discouraged. Then I give up. Can you relate? I am trying to be real with you and with myself. I am tired of living a pretend life. I want to live a FULL life to the FULLEST. Today I am ready to do whatever it takes to find that path.

Step 1, Day 1: My body does not belong to me. It’s a loaner.

“Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.”  1 Corinthians 6:19,20  NLT

The only thing I am sure about in life is my faith, so this will be my starting point. My body belongs to God. It seems like we take better care of stuff that does not belong to us. Do you agree? We are really careful with borrowed things because the last thing we want to do is return a damaged item to the owner. Well the truth is, we are all on borrowed time, living life in temporary bodies given to us by our Maker.

We don’t get to be here long.

I have polluted this temple, misused it and nearly destroyed it. I acknowledge that fact and I am sorry. Now I am determined to turn around and start walking a different path. God has gotten me through some horrible stuff. I am asking Him to join me on this journey too.

 Dear Lord, next time I go to shove a cookie in my mouth, please help me to remember that my body does not belong to me and I need to take better care of it. Please help me to find my satisfaction in You, not in food. Please give me the strength I need to make it through Day 2.

Amen.

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the journey of a hundred miles begins with one step