My steps are directed

Let me tell you something about myself. Something happens to me when I see food. I am drawn to it. Seriously, I am not exaggerating. I can’t see food go to waste. If food is lying around, and no one is eating it, I feel compelled to eat it. My thoughts are consumed by it – I can almost hear that donut calling me to eat it! No. Joke.

I know some of it comes from my childhood experiences. I grew up in South America. My parents were missionaries and they have told us stories of many times where money was short and food was scarce. Those kinds of experiences leave an indelible mark on a child. But I can’t blame it all on my childhood. A big part of my problem is just bad habits that I have developed over time.

So when I made the decision to step on this path to health, I started praying.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t have the power to change myself. That is why I still weigh 286 pounds after 46 years of trying! I can’t overcome my weaknesses. I can’t change my habits. I can’t fight the urge to eat bread. Food has become a drug to soothe my hurts and celebrate my joys.

I have been praying REAL hard. I asked God for some very specific things on Tuesday. I asked Him to help me gain control of my eating. I asked Him to give me wisdom to make the right choices for my body. He created me and He knows what’s best for me! Every morning, I have asked Him to help me honor Him with my body.

I know God heard me.

This morning I was in a meeting where snacks were served. Not just any snack… coffee cake with icing. Normally I would NOT have passed that up! I would have taken at least 2 pieces before the meeting, and any left overs back to my desk at the end.

But something happened this morning and I know it was God – because I could never have done this on my own. I did not eat cake. But even more surprising, I wasn’t distracted by the cake or drawn to it. I walked out without even thinking of taking the left overs. People can you celebrate with me!?!? God heard my prayers and today was a victorious day on the path to health.

Maybe you’re reading this and you think I’m crazy. Maybe you think I am attributing pure coincidence to an unseen God. I challenge you to look at things from a different perspective. There IS a loving God who hears and answers the cry of His people. If you don’t believe me, ask Him to show Himself to you and He will. He will show up in beautiful, unexpected ways. I’m an eyewitness – I’ve see Him do it countless times!

I’ll leave you with one of my favorite Psalms:

The Lord directs the steps of the godly.  He delights in every detail of their lives. Psalm 37:23

No matter what path you are on, what Thing you are struggling with, your steps can be directed. Pray… God will hear you.

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Day 2: Baby steps on the path

I am SO impatient…

When I decide that I want something or need something, I gotta have it NOW. I don’t want to wait. And, unfortunately, I don’t want to work too hard for it either.

I was watching a movie the other day and somebody said “You want success without sacrifice, you want progress without pain, and that’s just not possible.” Yup, that sums me up.

I acknowledge it, I am exposing it, so that I can change it…

Being impatient also causes me to try and change everything all at once. Join a gym! Find the right diet! Buy a new workout video!! Empty the fridge!!!! You get the picture. That is exhausting and overwhelming and never lasts long either. I need to force myself to slow down and take some baby steps.

Baby steps… they never come without some tumbles and bruises. But there’s something inside that baby that drives them to get back up and keep on trying. I need some of THAT in me.

Baby step 2: I have mentally decided that this is a lifelong journey. Unfortunately, it is not going to end in 90 days, or even 365 days. I will always have the same weaknesses, the same tendencies, and will have to stay vigilant until I breathe my last breath. Sounds a bit like AA… well, it seems like they are the experts and they got something right.

Let me just warn you, I do not intend to be a weight loss expert. I will probably never share exercise tips or recipes… that is not my goal. I just want to share my real thoughts on this path and find some people to walk along with me. It’s easier to keep going when you know you are not walking alone…

We are never alone